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Pre-birthday Emotional Roller Coaster

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My birthday is knocking at the door which leaves me in a complete emotional confusion. My pre-birthday anxiety started too early because I still have plenty of time till 18th of March. Yet, here I am, drowning in my own thoughts.

I couldn’t help myself but ask why I am so sensitive about turning 30. Every article that I read keeps on promoting: “30s are the new 20s”. Yes, maybe mentally wise.

If I compare where in life my mum was at my age, I can certainly say that I am running behind her trying to catch up… but not really. She already had me when she was 23 years old, by age of 30 she was in the beginning of her business which later on paid off in various ways. She bought a flat where we lived together and was still able to travel quite a lot and please have in mind that in those years Bulgarian citizens needed visa to do so.

On the other hand, I have dedicated my 20s to find myself. A decade of personal growth, mistakes, a constant searching and learning. It’s funny how I always thought that by age of 28 I’ll be married with a kid, having my own business and traveling around the world. The reality that I have chosen, however, is a bit different. For me finding the right person mattered the most so I wouldn’t settle for anybody but that one special man who my soul recognizes. Traveling was always part of my life but when it comes to career dedication, I feel like I found my focus just lately.

Life never turns out the way you expect. And that’s the beauty of the unknown. I am grateful for my blessings and I still have dreams that I work for and hopefully they will all happen soon. Instead of writing disastrous scripts in my mind, I should be more accepting of myself. In the end, I chose my road by myself and I walked on it through good and bad.

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Graffiti Session 1

Graffiti and fashion compliment each other. 

 I hope you enjoy this photography. 

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Top –     New Look/   Jeans – Topshop /  Jacket – Bershka/  Shoes – Topshop                                        

 

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 He’s wearing:       

 Top –     Bershka/   Jeans –  Zara/   Jacket – Topman/   Shoes – Aldo

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Blond Flashbacks

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Being a brunette all of my life was fun but you know what people say: “Blondes Have More Fun”. So there I found myself going through all these 50 shades of blond until I reached that platinum look… which later on has caused me so many headaches, but I’ll leave that story for another post.

That edgy look of Madonna in the 90s inspired so many Londoners this summer. Streets were full with guys and girls embracing that white hair and thick dark eyebrows. Finally – my time has come, at least that’s how I felt so I put myself together, grabbed that bleach and for the next 6 months BLEACH was my best friend.

Oh, and I don’t know about Madonna, but my black hair went through black and white highlights->orange->honey gold->ginger->yellow->white phase. At certain point I thought I could become a rainbow if I tried harder but with all of my honesty it was a great experience as every month I kept on surprising myself with a new hair tone. Funnily enough, I think Beyazit enjoyed it even more as he had a brand new looking girlfriend every other month. Which man doesn’t like that 🙂

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